I just started reading Demian by Hermann Hesse. I found out about it because I’ve watching a lot of BTS-related videos lately. Some of its passages are read throughout the trailer videos for their Wings album and those got me intrigued.
Aside from this post, nothing. Ug, I need to write more often or journal.
Citizen’s entire discography on Spotify. Stoked for their upcoming album! Listen to them here: https://open.spotify.com/artist/0znuUIjvP0LXEslfaq0Nor
“How do I recover from this sickness as soon as possible?”
Cheese flavor from the chips that I’m currently eating
To get some rest soon
Shorts and sky blue shirt
To feel genuinely happy and stress-free
A break, maybe?
I feel like shit. I know this is because I treated my body like shit for the past few weeks.
“I’m not growing up I’m just burning out And I stepped in line to walk amongst the dead”
Burnout, Green Day
Work has been hard lately and at times I feel like the world is punishing me. Being an introvert, the biggest struggle that has been recurring in my life after graduation is the fact that the line between work hours and personal time is blurred. I get that people development not only happens when you and your colleagues are at the workplace; that it also needs to happen outside of it. But for me, giving away most of my time to other people sucks the life out of my own self.
I do understand and accept the fact that I am part of a start-up company that is growing and that I need to be hands-on, I also know that I need to pause even for just a bit – for myself, for my soul. After all, I am not (and no human is) capable of working like a dog for days on end without crashing, dead-tired.
The reasons above are probably the reason why pockets of silence and moments of pause are so precious to me these days. In the stage of life that I’m currently living in, these have become rare and welcomed surprises that saved me from burning out.
Hi! This is Frau and I am now into my third year as a member of the “real world” where adult things (uy, pun intended) happen. I don’t have a lot of experience yet but who’s to say I’m not qualified to give my own advices? No one! So, read on and hopefully some, if not all, helps you in one way or another. 🙂
Advice 1: You do you – there’s no point in trying to keep up with what is the “uso” if it doesn’t genuinely resonate with you and your identity. For example, I like listening to pop punk and to KPOP, too. It might seem like a weird combination of genres to some people but I don’t care, what matters is I enjoy both. So, guys, please…
read the books you like
listen to the music you like
do things that you like
try things that you’d like to try
Advice 2: Don’t be afraid to seek help when things get tough. I’m guilty of trying to do everything alone and keeping everything in for as long as I can. I did that for the last 21 years so why can’t I continue doing it, right? Well, my friends, I realized I can’t carry on with that habit because a. it’s not good for my mental health and b. I don’t know all the answers and other do. But for this point, I’m not just talking about mental struggles but all kinds of struggle. Feeling down lately? Talk to a friend, family member or a therapist (if you can afford one). Don’t know how to solve a problem at work? Ask a senior or a mentor. You get the idea! You can’t always do things alone and oftentimes, you don’t have to.
Advice 3: If you want relationships to work, put in the effort needed. To be honest, I’m not good at chatting people up online or even texting just to catch up so I reaaaaally need to work on this till now. Good thing my friends are quite low maintenance so they don’t always need to be constantly hanging out (hi friends, sorry for this and promise I’ll be better #peace). They say the people you are five years ago may not be the same people you are close with now but, if you work on maintaining communication, hanging out and whatnot, then who’s to say it won’t be a lasting bond?
Advice 4: Fail forward. We cannot always expect to do everything right but what we can be sure of is we will fail at some point. When these failures happen, one thing to remember is to stop wallowing in the failure part and start thinking about the learning. How you will apply what you learned from that experience so it won’t happen again? Or at least the next time it happens, you know what to do. Accept the fact that you failed – own it – but keep in mind that that failure has given you an insight on what you can do to move forward.
Advice 5: You don’t always have to be ON. Okay, okay, I know we live in the digital age and everything is on the Internet. But you know what, as much as I love the online world and everything it offers, it’s exhausting (or at least to me, it is). Constant scrolling through mobile apps is now everyone’s go-to exercise. Communication has become so convenient that people sometimes have no regard about personal space/ time and they expect everyone to be, too. I even feel like sending an SMS has become obsolete because hello, Frau, y u not uses Messenger just like everyone?
Guys, sometimes we need to unplug and notice the things happening in our immediate surroundings. Get in touch with the real world (don’t get philosophical with me on this) or if you’re not the type of person who needs time off, respect those who do.
So yeah, those are my tips for you millennials and non-millennials. Apply what you can and discard what you cannot. Welcome to the real world! #
Hello! Before you get on with the post, just a little head’s up for future “Currently” posts. I have work on Sundays so I usually am too tired to write so I’m changing things up. Posts of this kind are now called “The Day-off Currently” ‘cause my days off are more interesting. That’s it.
I just finished a fiction book called The Hating Game so as of the moment I’m not reading anything. BUT! I have a pending book on my list, the one I talked about in the last edition (see, I forgot about it).
My end of the month report for February. I sound like a legit adult doing office work, don’t I? HAHAHAHAHA. Also, trying to remember what events and happenings I have this March since I have to put them up in my planner or else, I forget about them.
Currently playing Taeyeon’s first full-length album “My Voice”. She’s a KPOP singer and member of SNSD.
Nothing in particular. Exactly at this moment, it’s: “What happened to We Are The In Crowd?”
The lingering smell of white onion from the dinner I cooked earlier
For continuous sunny days and strength when storms roll in
To get a long vacation soon (away from life, maybe?)
Grey sort-of cropped top and blue workout (?) shorts
So, yesterday was Valentine’s (Valentines?) day and in honor of the spirit of declaring one’s love, I am giving a shoutout to the things and people that give me love or that I really love.
My family, of course. Even if they are a hard bunch of people to deal with, my family and extended relatives are always the people who make me feel loved any time of the year.
Gegen and Frams. These two are my siblings; one is my real sibling and the other a sister-from-another mother. Yes, I know I just mentioned my family in the first bullet but these two deserve their own spot.
Happy crushes. You know, those innocent (CHAR) crushes that everyone has, or not. For me, my “happy crushes” is just that – they make me happy and yes, kilig. I don’t want to be with them though, IRL. That would probably ruin the whole fantasy. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
In love with…
Pop punk love songs. Of course, this genre is known for writing about girls and relationships so there are a handful of songs that would make any girl feel giddy. I mean, why bother getting a boyfriend when I have Derek Discanio to serenade me, right? My all-time favorite kilig State Champs song is “Leave You in the Dark”. Some of my other faves are Box Car Racer – There Is, All Time Low – Painting Flowers and Neck Deep – A Part of Me.
Korean dramas. Yes, kinain na ako ng sistema. I am totally in love with good k-dramas and the characters that are in it. There is nothing like a good cry or laugh brought by a solid episode, whether it be a light-hearted romance or a time-travel, historical love story.
There’s this book that was a present from my boss called The Winning Attitude by John C. Maxwell. It’s probably one of the very, very few self-help books I own. I’ve actually been enjoying the book which is a surprise since I only reserve that joy when reading fiction.
Rather than writing, I’m doing some admin work for our Cebu site. Just inputting the latest batch of reimbursements on an Excel document, ynow, boring stuff.
My personal playlist on Spotify is in shuffle mode so right now, it’s Jimmy Eat World – The Middle. Oh, and the background noise of the electric fan swinging it’s head from left to right.
… about the things that I have to do or get done by tomorrow. I’m plotting my schedule later and set reminders because I am a forgetful person. RIP, memory.
Nothing bad, which is really good. 😉
I’ve been clouded by doubts lately so right now what I’m wishing for is clarity – of the mind and of the soul. Maybe some soul-searching is in order.
I’m hoping to finish these backlog of admin work by Tuesday so that I’ll have some time for delayed personal projects.
A sky blue Adidas shirt and some really cheap pambahay shorts that I bought from a local mart.
Nike’s Training Club app
This Is: TAEYEON playlist on Spotify
As It Is’ single, “okay”
A Bazooka Rocks 2017 Day 2 VIP ticket because it’s fcking State Champs that is playing that day.