A moment of silence for the exhausted

“I’m not growing up
I’m just burning out
And I stepped in line
to walk amongst the dead”

Burnout, Green Day

Work has been hard lately and at times I feel like the world is punishing me. Being an introvert, the biggest struggle that has been recurring in my life after graduation is the fact that the line between work hours and personal time is blurred. I get that people development not only happens when you and your colleagues are at the workplace; that it also needs to happen outside of it. But for me, giving away most of my time to other people sucks the life out of my own self.

I do understand and accept the fact that I am part of a start-up company that is growing and that I need to be hands-on, I also know that I need to pause even for just a bit – for myself, for my soul. After all, I am not (and no human is) capable of working like a dog for days on end without crashing, dead-tired.

The reasons above are probably the reason why pockets of silence and moments of pause are so precious to me these days. In the stage of life that I’m currently living in, these have become rare and welcomed surprises that saved me from burning out.


quiet afternoon in bed



Loves of my life

So, yesterday was Valentine’s (Valentines?) day and in honor of the spirit of declaring one’s love, I am giving a shoutout to the things and people that give me love or that I really love.

I love…

  • My family, of course. Even if they are a hard bunch of people to deal with, my family and extended relatives are always the people who make me feel loved any time of the year.
  • Gegen and Frams. These two are my siblings; one is my real sibling and the other a sister-from-another mother. Yes, I know I just mentioned my family in the first bullet but these two deserve their own spot.
  • Happy crushes. You know, those innocent (CHAR) crushes that everyone has, or not. For me, my “happy crushes” is just that – they make me happy and yes, kilig. I don’t want to be with them though, IRL. That would probably ruin the whole fantasy. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

In love with…

  • Pop punk love songs. Of course, this genre is known for writing about girls and relationships so there are a handful of songs that would make any girl feel giddy. I mean, why bother getting a boyfriend when I have Derek Discanio to serenade me, right? My all-time favorite kilig State Champs song is “Leave You in the Dark”. Some of my other faves are Box Car Racer – There Is, All Time Low – Painting Flowers and Neck Deep – A Part of Me.
  • Korean dramas. Yes, kinain na ako ng sistema. I am totally in love with good k-dramas and the characters that are in it. There is nothing like a good cry or laugh brought by a solid episode, whether it be a light-hearted romance or a time-travel, historical love story.

I guess that’s all. XOXO